It'z Ma' Life Ya'll..... =P

BeauTy =)

2010-09-25T20:22:00.001+08:00

Eyes like the moon,
Big, brown & round.
Whenever I look at you,
Your eyes haunt me without a sound.

Lips cute as a baby,
Small, curved & moist.
When they wud speak words of love,
My heart wud tremble with joy hearing your voice.

Skin soft as silk,
Subtle, clear & fair.
As u get closer 2 me,
My heart fills with flare.

A heart so pure,
No one can deny.
That when I look into your eyes,
I know for sure that you would never lie.

All that you are about,
Is all that is made in my mind.
Love me 2day or 2moro,
N u’ll see why I’ve become blind,
By ur beauty…

--To a special gal in my mind.... she's always in my heart.... & this is what i think abt her =)--

ColleGe 2nd rOunD.... XD

2010-08-18T01:47:00.004+08:00

2nd sem started... & so far things r goin ok.... Lif'e's movin slow.... Money's gettin' low.... Gotta get a job soon.... Applied.... & waitin 4 replies.... well, college iz juz still full of surprises.... People who r my best frenz last sem... Hav become my major enemies this sem.... But things hav changed 4 the better.... No more untrustable people!!! No more probs!!! =) But u noe what, that's what i tot.... Juz seems 2 be an imaginative thing.... That's juz a fact of this college.... no matter what u do or who ur wit, there's juz a problem waitin arnd the corner... Waitin 2 come out, suprise u & juz distract u away from ur studies... Juz hate all of this shit! What matters is, ur true frenz stand out when u face these probs & u realise who they are... Thats when u appreciate them the most.... My brothers & Sistas in college.... Dunno how i've survived all of it & how i'm gonna survive it for the next 2 years..... Mainly, it juz makes me miss home.... Nothin beats bein in my own room, watchin a movie, in my comfy bed & enjoying the air-cond!!! XD Miss those days.... =( Juz hang wit my brothers & sista, enjoyin life as it is.... but sadly, i'll juz hav 2 b here 4 now... At least till my next sem break.... Met some new people this sem..... Really different kinda people.... Enjoyed here & there.... & its safe 2 say, its not over =) Juz gotta live thru this sem & do my best.... till then, juz gotta bare wit what i hav....

eXam aGain... =P

2010-05-25T01:34:00.002+08:00

After a short sem.... THings r finally gonna come to an end.... All the late nites.... All the lepakin.... Gonna b slow & cooled.... N now's the time 2 study again.... LOL... After soooooo long since SPM.... Damm, gotta clean out my engine n start my pistons up again... Get back 2 my old self, study, quiet... Then once finals r over, let go again.... N release tension back home.... Goin back 2 lepak wit all my skol fren & hav sum gud old timez =P Call every1 up & go on a lepak spree.... =P So plans set... But then gotta study 1st =) Startin now... So see u guys when i get back k... Tc.... Cheers XD

B-day Boy & College BoY on the saMe day?!?! =D WOOOOOOO =)

2010-03-30T17:49:00.003+08:00

Yea..... U guys heard it rite =) Will b checkin in2 KLIUC on the 3rd which is this comin Saturday..... So happen 2 b my b-day N my 1st day of college...... LOLz.... Hope it's gonna go well.... The beginning of me at collegE..... =D But b4 tat got my list of things 2 do..... Like quit my job =P, pack my bags n see every1 i haven seen in a long time..... Cause once i'm there, i dun think i'll b comin back till like June, ma' 1st sem break.... Woooooooooo!!!! Gonna mix things up at KLIUC.... Change a few things here n ther.... N give it a touch of me..... Then it's sure gonna b rockin free n harD.... =P Besides, i hav few of ma' bro's there wit me.... We're gonna turn the college upside-down LOL =P Then go kacau the monkeys at UNITEN.... Must whack them at Futsal, Swimming, Badminton & Basketball..... Gonna put them 2 shame & place the badge of 09' from KLIUC as the best the college has seen.,... =) It's gonna b a long shot, some hard work & a whole lotta fun.... Plus, the parTieS..... =P DJ in the hoUse.... Gotta rock tat as well n keep a rockin record of damn cun parTieS at KLIUC..... =) Love wise, Dunno if i'm gonna meet Ms.Rite there.... Dunno if I noe her now..... But i sure as hell know there's gonna b a number of Ms.Rite Nows if Ms.Rite doesn't come into ma' life.... LOL =P...... Then gotta catch up wit my old buddiez from KL..... N not 4gettin Ms.sunsHine =P she's the 1 tat's gotta join b b a part of the long fun, paRty ride =) So yep, College..... Gonna 1 for the records.... The Book of Shan's amaZing recordz =P N it all begins on the 3rd..... So those at KLIUC, see ya there =)

--Shan Out--

LOst worlD....

2010-03-18T11:48:00.003+08:00

OMG.... Since like the day SPM results were out.... Every1 was sooo schocked with their results cause they all knew they wud do better than wat had come out.... Honestly, even most of the str8 A's students didn't even get str8 A's..... Most of them juz missed it by 1 or 2 subject.... But u noe what the truth is??? The useless government we hav, control public examinations soo much... That they no longer want many people 2 get str8 A's.... so we as students r feeling like WTF?!?!?! I mean come on lar.... The bloody government shud figure out a better solution to make it in a way that students can actually know where they went wrong in the exam.... Or at least, stop makin a stupid graph to determinte the grades.... I mean seriously, it's a lil' stupid lar.... If u wanna noe a student's true potential.... Then why based his grades on what other students in the whole country got?!?!?! No sence at all..... The only advise i can give 2 any student out there that feels the same, is too.... Study hard, get an overseas scholarship & migrate outta this country... Coz the education system & the poltics are only becoming worse.... If u hav the money, migrate right now!!! Besides, our family that we love, the abundant choices & varieties of food & things we hav here.... I dun think any1 else is staying for any other reason.... Simple 2 say, Malaysia is special.... Other countries are pushing their gears 2 go foward.... But Malaysia's in reverse gear..... Goin alll the way back to times where only uneducated people exist.... So consider my advise seriously.... & save ur future..... =)

She's back.... N no doubt, she's hot..... =P

2009-11-10T16:58:00.002+08:00

The Future replacements of the Backstreet Boys R here!!!

2009-11-08T14:58:00.002+08:00

These guys R seriously not bad..... The new hot thing in town =P.... Check them out!!!!

The Horrifying Truth every1 has 2 live with!!!!

2009-11-08T01:44:00.004+08:00

To every1 & any1 out there..... Life's full of bullshit.... N what most people call 'LOVE' is most of the time not what is seems 2 be.... But then again u hav to ask urself, wat is love??? To some people, it's the feeling of only wanting 2 b with the person ur in love with.... To some others, its the feeling u get when u've let sum1 in2 ur heart.... Sure it's a great feeling at 1st.... But ask urself next time, will it last??? Truth is, love between 2 people is overrated.... So if a guy loves a gal, she finds out abt it n she confronts him....She's never sure abt her decision, N' yet she goes thru wit it n agrees.... So they're happy 4 a month or slighty more, then it turns sour.... Problems begin..... Hearts get broken.... Finally, they separate n all feelings r forgotten.... Wat i mean is, it's a cycle of life.... So rather than participating in this suicidal circle, why shudn't we all juz avoid it?!?! I mean it's like an incurerable disease, once u've got it u can't get rid of it even if u want to.... But when it leaves u, life becomes different again.... For all this time u've been so sick that u dun even remember how 2 be healthy again.... N the worst part is, picking up the pieces after eveything is gone.... The sharp, excruciating pain u get right from within.... U do all sorts of things 2 get rid of it but at the end of the day, u realise it's all dum things u've done to 4get everything tat has happen..... Oh, the best part is, the person u loved allows themself to ask u 2 be their friend.... By using the famous line "Can we juz be frenz instead???".... Then again it sounds sooo juvenile to b mad at the person for a long time.... So sum people do agree..... But trust me, they're the biggest suckers in life.... N sadly, i'm speaking outta experience.... Honestly, 2 peolple who hav been in love with each other can never be friends... Cause one day later, all ur feelings from within r juz gonna pop out like a jack in a box... N ur back at square 1 with the same person.... But tat obviously doesn't happen 2 every1 as it applies to the majority of people out there.... At the end, wat do u do??? U set out ur own ways n ur spend the rest of ur life mad at each other as a result of ur own mistakes.... Doesn't it all sound sooooo silly N' juz plain stupid?!?!?! N' yet at the end of the day, we are all human aren't we??? Which also means we're biologically bond to this show of emotion, eventhough the pain we feel later is godforsaken.... Eventhough, rite now there are peolpe who are categorised as 'The Disfunctionals'...These are the people who hav taken time to give up on love.... Enjoy their life n actually b happy.... But thx to the mentality of society, they become the outcasts, the 'wrong' ones....Total & utter BULLSHIT!!!!! Society is lead 2 believe tat they r the 'bad' people.... But the truth is, every1 else are just a bunch of judmental assholes who no nothing of these people's past....Haizzzz...... As for me, the only way 2 reduce this kinda crap from happenin' is juz 2 take time off.... Relax.... The game's always open 4 u anytime..... So, hang back, enjoy wat u hav of urself, N stay away from relationships for awhile....Take time to put urself 2gether again N stay casual.... Then once u think ur ready, get back in the game....But make sure u've learnt from ur mistakes N never repeat them again, for only u decide ur future....No1 can do it 4 u.....

Ladies n Gentleman, on that note i end wat i hav to say only

to hope that every1 learns sumthin from this. TQ & Gud nItE....

--Shan Out--

After all this time, this is it???!?!?!

2009-11-07T00:30:00.006+08:00

After everything tat has happened, it's soo easy 4 u 2 juz abandon me... Wow, i'm very surprised... U played the perfect show.... 1st lose u as my gal n then now even as a friend.... Honestly, this is an intolerable excuse.... Mainly, cuz u won't even let me noe wat the problem is.... If it has nothin 2 do wit what i've said... Then wat is it abt?!?!?!?! All u can do is talk to me in riddles.... Like tat's helpin anything.... Ask urself is it fair to me at all??? N u wonder why i'm pissed for.... All this time, u come to me wheneva u've had a prob n i've always been there 4 u.... But wat makes this soo different tat u can't even tell me N' tat has to stop us from contacting each other???? It makes no sense to me!!!! ''Somethings r better left unsaid'', you said.... I say bullshit.... Tat is not how i've treated u all this while.... The only way to solve a problem is to talk abt it n settle it.... But god only knows wats makin u not think str8.... It is not impossible for me to neglect u... Which i will do.... But not at your request, but for the fact tat the moment those word came outta ur mouth ("I think it's best if v stop talkin to each other. So plz don call or msg me me anymore.Thx.Tc.Bye!") I felt u were the biggest regret of my life.... N i hav no heart to say it 2 ur face cause i pity you as a person... But in reference to tat, UR The Most Screwed Up Person I Eva Met!!!! N i'm not sorry 4 sayin it.... U r now n foreva gone to me.... So as i said when i msged u... I f*@king don't need this in my life!!!! So Screw it!!!!! Haiz..... The mere feeling i hav is way worse than dissapointment.... It's the feeling of being stabbed in the heart.... N I hope one way or anotha u come 2 understand wat a inconsiderate fool u r n learn 2 change urself.... For no one can do it for you.... Thx for wasting 8 months of my time, heaps of trouble, n all the days of my lost sleep spent consoling you... N thx for showing me wat a disposeable product I am to you.... THANK YOU!!!!!!!!

------The End-----

The Highlight Of Ma' Year.....XD

2009-11-06T14:30:00.007+08:00

Haha.....Well, this year's gonna b a year 2 remember 4 sure.... Spending Christmas N' New Year's at New Zealand... Woooo, can't wait... 1st stop, mata mata... The land of the hobbits =P... Nah.... It's juz the shootin' site 4 the Lord of The Rings Trilogy... Cool eh? Gonna camp out...Enjoy the free open spaces & mayb snoop arnd the hobbits home... This is wat an internet pic looks like... N i bet all my money it's gonna look even better when i get there... To stand on the land where 'Frodo the Dodo' and 'Sam the Unwise' lived... To enjoy the nice open spaces & the wind juz blowing through ur hair... Gonna b superb!!!! XD

Next Stop..... Coramandel Beach.... Wooo..... Laying on the sand, enjoyin the sun N' hittin the waves like crazy..... This will b da 1st time i'm tryin out surfin' wit real waves....N i mean huge ones.... Not the artificial ones we hav back here.... Gonna give parasailing a shot too.... Hang all the way up in the sky N' kiss the clouds..... Hmmm, it sounds all too gud =P... N 2 top it off, diner's at da beach ya'll.... Filled wit fineeee women n drinks tat'll get u higher than KLCC.....LOL....

Next then.... Off we go to Lake Rotorua.... It's like da freakin coolest lake any1 could eva' experience.... It's best at dusk.... The view is B.E.A.UTIFUL...... XD The Sky is freaking Purple at dusk..... Gonna chill n camp out there....Enjoy the fine scenary, get some photography goin N' do a little wine tasting at the nearby vineyard.... Ooooooo.... Tat's gonna b real cun XD..... All da different types of wine to choose from N' definitely get some wine 2 bring home.....

Da following day, off we'll be to our next stop, Kaikura Beach...... Another place 2 relax N'chill out... The highlight here wud b swimming wit the dolphins.... Rite here, we'll b able to get up close to one of nature's most wonderful N' intelligent creatures.... It's sooo gonna b freakin fun..... Then kickback on the beach for a nice dinner a good nite's rest XD....

Then next, we're off to the icy mountains of the Franz Josef Glaciers...... Wooooo..... Freaking cold N' snowy XD.... The ice mountains are just breath taking.... Gonna enjoy hiking up the ice galciers..... Gotta get our special gear 1st N' da tour guide.... Then hike all da way up.... Definitely gotta be covered thick, like at least 3 layers of clothes.... Damn.... We'll definitely b here 4 abt 3days.....

JUst a couple of miles away is the next big extreme place..... With the best extreme sports eva..... At da Mount Cook..... Gonna hit da slopes wit some boards.... Gotta catch sum serious air man!!! Gnarly.....! =P Next, gonna get a close up view of Edoras in Lord of the Ring.... N visit the Wonderful city of Rohan.... Where the battle of the 2 towers took place..... + & - injury time ( if there's any, we'll b there 4 2 days.....)

Finally, the most beautiful place of all..... We shall enter the relm of Milford Sound.... Woooo... The view is 2 die for..... Literally XD...... Gonna go water rafting & canoeing.... N mayb a a glimpse of the miracle creatures tat still populate the lake from the time of da dinosours..... The Legendary Man-Eating New Zealand Bird..... Even scientist now hav come to belief tat it exist.... But so far, it has not been captured....Which means it's still sumwhere out there.... Wooo... Would b a good discovery XD........

The end of this wonderful journey shall b at Christ Church.... Where we'll b flying all da way home..... N wit tat, all we'll hav is the experience of a lifetime XD.... The best gift I could eva' receive after SPM XD..... So the count down is 47 days 2 go from 2day..... Can't wait..... Till tat.... Signing out... -Shan-XD

Love Again...

2009-11-05T17:53:00.002+08:00

To have love,
Is to only have u in my life.
To have happiness,
Is to be right next to you.

Years were spent,
Searchin' for you my love,
And now,
The wait becomes clear.

You are my rose,
Among the broken pieces of glass.
The cuts I felt,
And the pain I had to go thru,
To only finally get to you...

Never would I regret,
A day in my life.
Never would i let you,
Out of my arms to someone else.
Never would I,
Break my promise to cherish you,
Till my end of days.

For you and only you,
Gave me the will,
To finally open my heart,
And let someone in.
For this is the reason,
You will remain in my heart,
for eternity...